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Saturday, April 09, 2005 ; 2:45 PM

Wednesday
Twelfth Night play was great. Feste is the best actor la. His voice simply melts me. Every girl in the theatre were charmed by him. Some even went to the extent of making a big sign which says,"Feste! Marry Me!" Haha... Crazy, I'd say... And Sebastian's quite cute la. Looks about the same age as us. Currently studying in some Tanglin Trust School. Is it an international school or something?

Thursday
I honestly feel bad about having to withdraw from the 10x50m heats at the last minute. I didn't want to, actually. When I told Rachel that I will be missing dance for a short while coz of the heats, she said that all of us were expected to be present for dance for our 2nd last full-dress rehearsal. So I had to get Ethelyn to help me find a replacement if possible. If not, they can always come to the MPH to get me and when they didn't, I would have assumed they got a replacement for me already. Well, I reached the MPH and found out that quite a number of the SYF people are involved in the heats and were allowed to go run la. Sucks. Now I'm not even involved in any sports day event this year. My last year in Cedar. My graduating year. How pathetic is that?

Friday
This is absolute hierachy, un-democratic, hypocritical, biased and a bunch of fakers. Sometimes I just wished I could just lash it out at them, to speak up for myself, to clear my name. But no, I don't think so. For 1, I couldn't be bothered. 2, so what if I did? 3, what's the use of it anyway? 4, Are they going to believe you? It had been kept within me for more than a year already. So what's a few more months to me? Just bear it out till I leave for good. I thought I had finally reached the absolute last straw after today. Surprisingly, I managed to hold back myself. I just don't know why I can't see how that person is like everybody else. Can I just simply brush it off with the conclusion that I have an attitude problem or because of her attitude towards me that was just so totally different from how she is to the others? Anyway, it isn't really her that I'm unhappy about, but rather most of them. Ok. I'm not making any sense in this whole chunk of stuffs.

Mummy's leaving tomorrow. How am I going to survive so long during school term without Mummy? I have no idea. I guess you'll never miss the water till the well runs dry. Well, not entirely dry in this case. Just temporarily. :P Ok. I'm weird today. Probably a pre-busy day symptom. Tomorrow will be hectic. I've even planned my schedule. Starting from 5.30am onwards. Yeah. I ain't kidding. Fancy waking up so early on a Saturday morning. How I wished I were kidding myself.